Monday, July 11, 2005
Monday Blues? Not THIS Guy!
I feel absolutely great today!
It’s been so long since I had a good attitude on a Monday that I almost feel as though an alien has taken over my body. But a cute alien with a huge cock.
It all started when I woke up this morning. Usually on Mondays, I sit having my morning cigarette and lament all of the shitty things I have to do during the week. But honestly, this week, I don’t have anything to do that I don’t want to do. I was able to finish my cigarette, jump in the shower and leave the apartment without having my usual Monday morning panic attack. Things are really starting to look up for me and I am thrilled about it.
This Friday my brother moves back to the states. For those of you who don’t know, four years ago my brother moved to Germany to complete his 4 year ROTC commitment. Within a year of him living there, he was sent to Iraq and spent 16 months on the front line of the war. Thank God he made it through that experience unscathed physically, even if emotionally he is still dealing with some of the aftermath.
Over the last year, he has been finishing up his commitment and getting ready to come home. And finally, I’m about to have my brother back in my life! He is moving to Boston and we will get to see each other as often as we like. I’m going away with Paul on vacation at the beginning of August and it will culminate with us spending a few days in Boston with my brother! I mean…how fucking awesome is that? I’ve been waiting years for this time period of my life. A time when my brother and I could become the best friends that I know we’ve always wanted to be.
Since I didn’t get to spend my birthday with my brother and parents, we will be celebrating it this weekend. Many presents for me to open as well as a birthday dinner and a night out at the race track. I am so fucking excited! And I don’t have to work next Monday so I can either stay in Albany for 3 whole days or come back early and spend some time with Paul. It’s up to me and for the first time in a long time, I’m not going to make that decision until I absolutely have to.
Therapy is going really well. I’m just about at the point in my life where I feel confident enough in myself to begin auditioning in NYC. So much has been changing for me and it’s all starting to fall into place. I feel naturally happy and excited about what the next six months are going to bring. Lately, I’ve felt really pressured by everything else in my life, but with my therapists help, I’ve been able to eliminate a lot of the unnecessary bullshit that I just don’t need to deal with. And wouldn’t you know it? I already feel a lot more relaxed and in control of my life. God, it feels great.
Who ever knew that a Monday could taste so good?
I feel absolutely great today!
It’s been so long since I had a good attitude on a Monday that I almost feel as though an alien has taken over my body. But a cute alien with a huge cock.
It all started when I woke up this morning. Usually on Mondays, I sit having my morning cigarette and lament all of the shitty things I have to do during the week. But honestly, this week, I don’t have anything to do that I don’t want to do. I was able to finish my cigarette, jump in the shower and leave the apartment without having my usual Monday morning panic attack. Things are really starting to look up for me and I am thrilled about it.
This Friday my brother moves back to the states. For those of you who don’t know, four years ago my brother moved to Germany to complete his 4 year ROTC commitment. Within a year of him living there, he was sent to Iraq and spent 16 months on the front line of the war. Thank God he made it through that experience unscathed physically, even if emotionally he is still dealing with some of the aftermath.
Over the last year, he has been finishing up his commitment and getting ready to come home. And finally, I’m about to have my brother back in my life! He is moving to Boston and we will get to see each other as often as we like. I’m going away with Paul on vacation at the beginning of August and it will culminate with us spending a few days in Boston with my brother! I mean…how fucking awesome is that? I’ve been waiting years for this time period of my life. A time when my brother and I could become the best friends that I know we’ve always wanted to be.
Since I didn’t get to spend my birthday with my brother and parents, we will be celebrating it this weekend. Many presents for me to open as well as a birthday dinner and a night out at the race track. I am so fucking excited! And I don’t have to work next Monday so I can either stay in Albany for 3 whole days or come back early and spend some time with Paul. It’s up to me and for the first time in a long time, I’m not going to make that decision until I absolutely have to.
Therapy is going really well. I’m just about at the point in my life where I feel confident enough in myself to begin auditioning in NYC. So much has been changing for me and it’s all starting to fall into place. I feel naturally happy and excited about what the next six months are going to bring. Lately, I’ve felt really pressured by everything else in my life, but with my therapists help, I’ve been able to eliminate a lot of the unnecessary bullshit that I just don’t need to deal with. And wouldn’t you know it? I already feel a lot more relaxed and in control of my life. God, it feels great.
Who ever knew that a Monday could taste so good?
